Aftercare Was a Vital Extension of My Inpatient Program:
I knew I needed help desperately. My life was completely out of control and I was slowly dying from my alcohol abuse. I had become totally isolated and drinking constantly which in the end caused me alcoholic seizures and constant blackouts. I could not stop drinking which lead me to feel helpless, hopeless and in the end completely suicidal.
I cannot say enough about my experience at Bellwood. I was so broken emotionally, physically and spiritually before I entered Bellwood. Bellwood being a treatment centre which provided me with education, nutrition, emotional and psychical rehabilitation in a safe environment especially since I had had childhood trauma, literally saved my life.
I have been sober for since July 23, 2007. I am now living life on life’s terms, reaching out for help when I need it and living one day at a time. I have my family back in my life and now they come to me for emotional support and guidance instead of them being the parent and me being the sick child. My children ask me to help other people in their lives with substance abuse problems. I refer those still suffering addicts to Bellwood and share my experience in treatment as the most important thing I have ever done in my life.
The Aftercare Program at Bellwood was my life line in maintaining my continued sobriety. In the program I received continual support and guidance from my recovery counselor. My Tuesday night group was a place where I could share honestly in a safe and supportive environment. For me it was a vital extension of my inpatient program.
I Can’t Wait for the Next Adventure!:
I was in a very unhealthy marriage. My husband was domineering, a bully, and controlling. As hard as I could, nothing very seemed good enough for him. Our whole life circled around his career. It didn’t matter how I wanted to live my life. Instead of standing up for myself, I basically gave him permission to break my spirit. In response to my profound unhappiness I began to drink to escape and that landed me up into detox five times and three rehabs including Bellwood. My husband left me the day I got out of my first rehab. I came home on Thanksgiving weekend 2009 with my husband of 18 years gone. No note. Just booze everywhere.
As of April 11, 2013, I’m nine months sober. The AA promises are being fulfilled. What once baffled me I can handle easily. I’ve been able to travel extensively and go to meetings internationally. I’m back at work, going to lots of meetings, AA & NA conferences, getting a Culinary Arts Professional Fromage certificate at George Brown College. I now have lots of friends in recovery. I can’t wait for the next adventure.
Bellwood was my third treatment centre in three years. I enjoyed my experience at Bellwood because of its holistic approach. Emphasis on nutrition, physical activities, meditation, relapse prevention, goal setting, and PAWS (Post Acute Withdrawal Symptoms) topped with a long-term Aftercare program were crucial to me success in sobriety.
- Beverly B.
Now I am in a Very Healthy Place:
I was a life-time drinker. I worked on Bay Street, enjoyed martini lunches and the party scene. I even experimented with marijuana and cocaine, but alcohol was my life. My job involved travelling and entertaining and there was always an environment where alcohol was readily available. I found myself always thinking about when I would get my next drink, and would try to arrange to have continual access to alcohol. For the last 4-5 years, I truly became a 24/7 drinker. I began to have health issues and problems with my marriage, and finally realized I needed to do something before things became even worse. So I tried to stop on my own, with no support or programs. I relapsed and was kicked out of the house. My drinking continued until I finally realized that I would die if I did not do something.
This time, I knew I could not do it on my own. I had heard about Bellwood and its reputation. In 2011, I detoxed, came to Bellwood for an assessment, and stayed for treatment. I did not know what to expect. I had no experience with AA and had had a bad experience with therapy. I was jaded, I had a big ego and my self-esteem had hit rock-bottom. What I found at Bellwood was a community that cared about everyone. I valued the personal approach of the doctors, therapists and recovery counsellors. Bellwood’s holistic approach made me realise that it was not just about the addiction. It was what I needed to get start to get my life back on track. Bellwood’s aftercare was a big part of the program, and I continue to be involved. I also heard about their relapse prevention program. I attended it in the afternoons as an outpatient, and attended meetings in the morning. I completely immersed myself in these programs and groups. Bellwood got me sober and gave me the tools to stay sober. My recovery counsellor talked about the importance of having support groups, so I also made AA a huge part of my recovery. I joined a home group, found a sponsor and continue to work the steps every day.
I spoke with my boss about making some changes to my work routine, which would not have been a good fit for any of the parties involved. I left the organization, and felt a big weight had been lifted off my shoulders, as it gave me time to focus on my recovery. I chose to listen to the experts at Bellwood and my friends in AA, and now I am in a very healthy place. My life is better than I could have ever imagined. I have reconciled with my wife and we have moved to a new house. I am grateful for the support I have had and the opportunities I enjoy as my recovery continues. If you choose to work hard and make changes in your life, the rewards are remarkable!
The Bellwood Family Aftercare program has been responsible for giving us new insights:
I am the mother of two adult children, a daughter who is 38, and a son who is 34. Our son is a recovering alcoholic who is currently 14 months sober. My husband and I have struggled with his addiction since he was 18, and even attempted our own family intervention with him 2 years ago, but it took his own realization to attend Bellwood and start his recovery process. We went through many years of personal angst and marital strife surrounding his drinking.
We now have the knowledge and understanding of the addictive personality, and have gained new patience and trust in our dealings with our son.
The Bellwood Family Aftercare program has been responsible for giving us new insights into our everyday dealings with family, friends and co-workers. Both my husband and I have found a deeper love, understanding and compassion for each other, and all of our dealings with family and associates are flavoured with our lessons learned at Bellwood. The people that we have met there have become our extended family, and this experience has indeed been a turning point in our lives. Our thanks to you all!
My Kids Have Their Father Back:
Before attending Bellwood, my life was a train wreck waiting to happen. I was drinking in excess every day and often having blackouts and not remembering many hours of the night before. I had hurt those in my life closest to me with my drinking, lying and all the baggage that comes with an addiction. I laugh today when I hear people say they were a “functioning alcoholic”. I am not sure what that means but I know in my situation, I thought I was fooling everyone - but I wasn’t fooling anyone but myself. People knew that if they needed me for any work-related issues, they better see me in the morning or else they could not count on me being there in the afternoons. My health, my finances, my relationships were all strained to the breaking point, until I finally hit rock bottom ……
I am now a year sober and my life is amazing! I have started to regain the trust I burned with the people closest to me, and realize who in my life are really important. I have four amazing grandchildren that I have a great relationship with and I am so proud to have them call me Grandpa. My kids have their father back, and the love of my life, my girlfriend, has the man she knew was inside of me ……. finally. We built our dream home on 9.5 acres and have an amazing life ahead of us. My finances are on the rebound. I have started going back to the gym with dedication and I am in the best shape of my life. I still have thoughts of drinking but now have the tools to deal with them on a more mature level.
All of this I can thank Bellwood for. I truly believe that I might be dead by now if not for Bellwood, as I was drinking more and more. I was scared to make the initial contact and was discouraged by the waiting period presented to me by other facilities. Somehow the staff at Bellwood recognized my desperation and they made it happen. I was truly very nervous on my drive to Bellwood but little did I know it would be one of the best decisions of my life. All the staff at Bellwood made me feel comfortable and unjudged. I met some wonderful people who were there at the same time. The sessions at Bellwood were very informative and I learned many new skills to deal with my addiction. I won’t say the sessions were all easy, but they were necessary and beneficial. I learned so much at Bellwood that I have brought back into the real world. I am finally at a point where I do not fear those thoughts of drinking, as I feel that I have the tools to deal with them. I had to make many changes in my life regarding the places and people I hung around with, but I knew after leaving Bellwood that the people who truly cared for my well-being would still be there. I carry my graduation medallion in my pocket every day to remind me of my wonderful experience at Bellwood.
I will never be able to thank all of you at Bellwood enough!
My Life Has Changed for the Better:
Having been in recovery now since 2004, I can honestly say my life has changed for the better in so many ways. I was, as it is sometimes described, "a functioning alcoholic", (we are all functioning at some point aren’t we?), which in itself is a bit of an oxymoron. I had a job, my family was still with me and I owned a house. Of course, all of it hanging by a very thin thread.
When I finally admitted to myself that I had a problem, AND asked for help, I was fortunate enough to get into the treatment program at Bellwood. My recovery process started, and as I accepted that I am an addict/alcoholic, life became so much easier to live, and to be part of. Anxieties left me, I became a caring person again, selfishness faded away, I became a better father and husband and more productive at work. In other words, I have become a caring human being and part of society again.
These days, life IS beautiful. Of course, it is not all a bed of roses just because I am in recovery, but the difference now is that I have the coping skills to deal with situations instead of fleeing from them by using drugs or alcohol. As long as I remember whom I am and what I am, and deal with my feelings and situations honestly, I will not use alcohol or drugs. To do that, I make sure I talk to other people in recovery on a regular basis. If I don't, I will go back to using, and I certainly don't want to do that, because that was a very, very dark place.
PS. I still have my family, house and job.
A Launching Pad to a Life Free of Compulsion and Addiction:
Before my time at Bellwood, my life was truly unmanageable. I was unable to go to work, I was a complete recluse, I spent tons of money on food and did not engage in any activities that I used to enjoy.
The Eating Disorder Treatment Program at Bellwood has truly changed my life. The goal is to treat the whole person and through a combination of structured eating, group and individual therapy, access to acupuncture/massage, daily lectures, as well as art and music therapy, Bellwood helped me tackle my issues from all directions. But it is not just the strong programming that makes Bellwood the success that it is. Bellwood's success is primarily due to the outstanding professionals on staff that provide a safe, caring and compassionate environment in which to begin the healing journey.
Since leaving Bellwood, I use structured eating techniques, I have developed a supportive network of caring individuals, I look forward to social outings with friends and I have developed a passion for art that inspires me daily. I still struggle, but I often refer back to what I learned at Bellwood and it has certainly been my launching pad to a life free of compulsion and addiction.
Thank you, Bellwood, for your guidance as I work towards a life free from my eating disorder.
Once Again a Role Model to My Family:
Low self esteem combined with high work stress, a sense of personal failure and a heavy dose of intellectualization to bring me almost to my drinking bottom when I came to Bellwood. There I learned much about myself and acquired many tools to handle my addiction, including a support network of fellow addicts. After Bellwood, I lapsed once and really hit my bottom in the detox centre; but the tools, self awareness and the network which I found at Bellwood were part of the package which pulled me through. I am now happily approaching my fifth year celebration of sobriety and can once again be a role model to my family.
B of Ottawa
Life is Better on the Other Side:
By the time I got into Bellwood I was a stumbling, slurring mess; it took me 37 years to get there. As a lot of high functioning professionals, it was only when I started to malfunction, that I got scared, meanwhile I had caused unbearable suffering to my family and friends, but by that time, my feelings had died. However, with help from those very people that I had hurt, I checked into Bellwood.
I've been clean and sober for 6 1/2 years and I can honestly say Bellwood saved my life…I didn’t have another year in me. The care and understanding at this institution is astonishing.
I can honestly say that the 12 promises found in AA are actually unfolding for this addict. When I first read them, I really didn’t think they could apply to me, but they did. I never thought I would be recommending sobriety, but I can truly say that life is way better on the other side. Good luck.
A Journey with a Lot of Twists and Turns:
My drinking was out of control and my life in chaos. I was isolating from my family and friends to drink, damaging the important relationships in my life. I was avoiding life by numbing my feelings, both good and bad.
Bellwood taught me that alcoholism is a disease and truly jump-started my recovery by stressing the importance of balance for my physical, mental, social and spiritual self. The Bellwood Aftercare Program keeps me connected with my Bellwood experience. Coupled with Alcoholics Anonymous, today I live a sober, loving and service oriented life.
My recovery is a journey with lots of twists and turns along the road. Sobriety allowed me to start that journey and the 12 Step Program provides me with insights into myself, ways of making changes and equips me to better deal with the life obstacles in my path.
To remain sober and continue to move forward in my recovery, I need to guard against complacency. Now at 18 months sober, I realize that I must do more, rather than less, to strengthen my program, spiritual condition and quality of life.
I need to live one day at a time.